Lub-dub, lub-dub

I learned from Dr. Kreitzer in Anatomy 1 or 2 that the heart makes a lub-dub sound when it beats. The lub is the closing of the mitral valve (right side of the heart) or tricuspid valve (left side of heart). The dub represents the closing of the pulmonary valve (right side) or the aortic valve (left side). (I hope all of my nursing and pre-med friends enjoyed that :) )
You may be wondering what my point of telling you this was. Well, to be quite honest, I think my 'dub' is malfunctioning. Since I have come home from India, it has been harder to breathe and I think the reason is that my 'dub' isn't working properly therefore blood cannot be pushed to my lungs via my pulmonary arteries or to the rest of my body via my aorta. (sorry...but i have to retain my knowledge somehow...keep it fresh) When I left India, I didn't just leave my clothes and my leftover toiletries, but I also left part of my heart there. Apparently, from what I've learned, it is pretty vital to have all of your heart inside your body at the same time. I guess that is why my 'dub' is malfunctioning. The kids, "my kids", they stole my right and left ventricles and now it is nearly impossible for me to live without them. Believe me, I have tried.
Honestly, a huge, vital part of my heart is still in India. My heart is with my precious babies in Ajmer who I dream about constantly whether I am awake or asleep. My heart is with the amazing kids who lived in our neighborhood. My heart is with the kids who came to our children's program everday at the slum we visited. My heart is with the attention starved kids in and around the leper colony we visitied. My heart is with the beggars whose hopeless eyes touched the very depths of my soul. The Lord has given me an earnest passion for the people of India, and as I prayed for him to make me bold, he did just that. He taught me to love boldly, and in doing so, I lost part of my heart to the people there. I miss them more than words can describe. The fact that in just 3 weeks I will be in India again is unreal to me. Is this really happening? Is it true that I just might be able to breathe normally again when my right and left ventricles rejoin my right and left atria? When I hold my kids in my arms again, these arms that have ached for them ever since I tore myself away less than 2 months ago, will my heart again beat regularly, making that magical lub-dub sound? I know without a doubt that it will. I only pray my 'lub' does not give out until then.
The only thing that counts is faith expressing itself through LOVE. Galatians 5:6