Anticipation

As time draws near for me to board that plane in Pittsburgh, my excitement continues to build to an almost ecstatic level. I can barely believe that in just two short weeks I will be on my way back to the very place I left half of my heart. My arms that have ached to hold my babies will once again be full. I will finally be able to wrap them in my arms and tell them just how much I love them and how much I have missed them. I know there will be tears of joy streaming down my face at this much anticipated reunion.
It seems that no matter what the enemy throws at me to try to discourage me or what parts of the journey may look too difficult, the Lord is showing me his provision and faithfulness in being by my side at all times again and again. Today, I received my visa! Praise God! It processed so much faster than it was supposed to and I know that was all God's doing. I am so in awe of how he continues to provide and work out the details! No matter how crazy His plan may be, I know that only by following Him will my life ever really make sense. Crazy right? Crazy wonderful!
With only two weeks to go and all plans falling into place I can barely stand the anticipation. Everything anyone says to me consistently reminds me of India. I think about it constantly. I truly miss India. I especially miss the very dear people that I love there. No matter how hard this road back to India has been or will be, IT IS WORTH IT! It is more than worth it. I was reading a Karen Kingsbury book the other day, Family, (in the Firstborn series which I would recommend if you enjoy Christian romance novels) and it mentioned a passage in 2 Chronicles 20. I opened up the Word and read the passage and the Lord spoke to my heart. This is the passage:
This is what the Lord says to you: "Do not be afraid or discouraged because of this vast army. For the battle is not yours, but God's...You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the Lord will give you, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the Lord will be with you." -2 Chronicles 20: 15 & 17
I had been feeling discouraged and even a little afraid, but then the Lord again spoke right into my soul the very words I needed to hear. He is pretty amazing like that. He reminded me that the battle is not mine. It doesn't matter that there are many against me here and in India because God is fighting this battle for me. I just have to take up my position (following Him to India alone and unsure of what's to come) and stand firm (never wavering in believing He is faithful). I don't have to be afraid or discouraged because the Lord will be with me. No matter what. As long as I follow Him and I stand firm, He will be with me and the battle is His.